“Each sinful act leaves a mark, on the tiny central self which no one sees in this life but which each of us will have to endure-or enjoy-forever. One man may be so placed that his anger sheds the blood of thousands, and another so placed that, however angry he gets, he will only be laughed at. But the little mark on the soul may be much the same in both”- C.S. Lewis
C.S. Lewis is one of the greatest intellectuals before our time. We came across this quote after we wrote the Emotional Monster Part I
. We were fascinated by what he said, as it was analogous to our own supposition about how we may all express anger in dissimilar degrees but the effects are much the same. Has anyone ever thought that stuffing anger was not as bad as exploding? Or that giving someone the silent treatment was not as bad as verbally abusing someone? Well, the truth is both expressions leave tiny marks on our souls just as C.S. Lewis stated. Maybe you are the one who is metaphorically shedding the blood of thousands by allowing your anger to hurt those you love. Maybe you are the one, who even at your angriest, you couldn’t hurt a fly. Either way, anger is damaging in ways we don’t always discern.
C.S. Lewis is not referring to anger itself as the enemy of our souls; he is making an argument about what we do with our anger. It is when we make bad choices with our anger that it becomes a monster
instead of a message
or prompting to take righteous and rightful action. There are so many profitable impressions that we should be accruing in our inner beings that we can enjoy forever. Why should we have to endure the imprints of anger?
When you feel anger, discern the message your anger may be giving you and look for opportunities to do something productive. If you miss the message, expect a visit from the monster and another mark on your core.